Well, Sweeney wasn't bothered about the fight. He was bothered because he belongs to the other pack and he didn't know if you were trying to start a turf war. I know you aren't.
Would a consensual, all-out barroom brawl with him--or someone as willing to hit hard--count as 'sparring' to you?
[It all does circle back around to the way Alec was raised. Literally bred and raised.]
He's complex. And he spent twenty-two years having to hide his thoughts from people who would literally burn out his happy memories with a laser if he didn't. As well as I know him, a lot of our serious conversations are me waiting for him to be able to talk.
[A small nod] I helped someone try to wreck the ship, once. I didn't want to die, I didn't want anyone else to die. I was just so tired of nothing else I was doing mattering.
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:06 pm (UTC)[He wants to hurt.]
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:10 pm (UTC)Would a consensual, all-out barroom brawl with him--or someone as willing to hit hard--count as 'sparring' to you?
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:14 pm (UTC)I'm not looking for solutions right now, Lark.
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:16 pm (UTC)I miss him. Too. I can't stop thinking about him.
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:22 pm (UTC)I hate this. I've always hated this.
And I don't know why it's taking so fucking long.
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Date: 2022-01-26 04:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-26 04:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-27 09:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-27 11:09 pm (UTC)Jack shit.
[And then a pause.]
How's Alec?
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Date: 2022-01-28 02:55 am (UTC)He could run a marathon on a broken leg, though, so it's hard for even me to know what's going on with him.
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Date: 2022-01-28 03:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-28 03:26 am (UTC)He's complex. And he spent twenty-two years having to hide his thoughts from people who would literally burn out his happy memories with a laser if he didn't. As well as I know him, a lot of our serious conversations are me waiting for him to be able to talk.
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Date: 2022-01-28 03:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-28 03:37 am (UTC)How has Warren been with you?
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Date: 2022-01-28 03:39 am (UTC)So, of course he's fucking perfect.
But - he doesn't know how to help me like he normally does.
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Date: 2022-01-29 02:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-29 01:19 pm (UTC)But I don't think it actually helps.
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Date: 2022-01-31 02:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-31 02:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-31 02:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-31 02:25 am (UTC)But think of it like...the extreme version of throwing a plate against the wall.
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Date: 2022-01-31 02:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-31 02:36 am (UTC)Yeah, that. It gets tedious.