If you think people’s empathy should not extend to you, then your ‘not thinking about it’ is avoidance. Or repression. Not apathy, however much you wish it was.
[ Faster and a little louder. ]
And yes, actually. I do care if you’re hurting or lost or any of that and not because it might affect me. The fact that I had to be brutalized in the hallway to know about it pisses me off but given I’m about as likely to tell anyone my emotional well-being I can at least understand.
Why am I pissing you off? Because I won’t just let you go on behaving the exact same way you always have expecting a different result? Or is it something else?
I have suddenly found myself with a lot more thinking time. So yes. It is ridiculous. Strap in.
You wake up early. Do something exceptionally British like drink tea while staring longing at a picture of the Queen. Then it's off to the library to sit around and help people find whatever stupid shit comes into their brains. And then you come home, watch a terrible documentary about fish or the types of sand in the Sahara, and then it's off to bed at around eight after a long day.
Other than the Queen, who I'm not discussing if we're going to have a civil discussion of any sort that isn't me ranting for an hour and a half about the absolute bullshit waste of taxes that is the 'royal family', and the choice of documentaries and the bed time... it's not entirely off.
Would you, or would you not, consider it being 'kidnapped' to have been beaten until unconsciousness (for whatever reason) and stashed in a cupboard to be interrogated later?
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If you think people’s empathy should not extend to you, then your ‘not thinking about it’ is avoidance. Or repression. Not apathy, however much you wish it was.
[ Faster and a little louder. ]
And yes, actually. I do care if you’re hurting or lost or any of that and not because it might affect me. The fact that I had to be brutalized in the hallway to know about it pisses me off but given I’m about as likely to tell anyone my emotional well-being I can at least understand.
Why am I pissing you off? Because I won’t just let you go on behaving the exact same way you always have expecting a different result? Or is it something else?
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[It will be another twelve hours before he checks this again.]
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You’re getting text because I’m in bed but that was not an answer.
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Jon. I got pissed at you because you keep pushing this narrative that doesn't exist.
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What narrative?
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The narrative that people actually care outside their own sphere.
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Projecting your coping mechanisms on others doesn’t make it true.
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Look, I know I'm doing the 'well, why can you care about people but other people can't care about you' thing. I know I am.
If I knew how to stop, I definitely would.
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I'll put it in my inspo journal.
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But you're not me.
If you were, you'd be more handsome.
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If I were you, I probably wouldn't have been nearly eaten alive by flesh-eating worms either. Point?
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Though maybe you would have been sucked into a star. That seems your luck.
You're taking up all of my break times. I hope you know that.
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And you're the one answering and you're 'pissed' with me so I'm either more amusing or I'm the only one in the queue.
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Not many people beating down my door to talk to me.
Go to sleep, Jon. You'll keep the boyfriend awake.
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You wake up early. Do something exceptionally British like drink tea while staring longing at a picture of the Queen. Then it's off to the library to sit around and help people find whatever stupid shit comes into their brains. And then you come home, watch a terrible documentary about fish or the types of sand in the Sahara, and then it's off to bed at around eight after a long day.
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Please get a life.
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GODDAMMIT
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