"Yeah, but see that sounds normal. Also everything I did was lawful. It wasn't...right, but it was lawful sorta. That's why Warren was a whatever-you-called it."
He gives him a nudge. "That's why I got my own personal torture ship."
"Not for my sake," he says a little more quietly, "for- for Martin. I just-
"I know how far he'll bend to try and make me happy. I know how much he'll twist himself into pieces. A-and I know how close to the Lonely he is. It all- all of it feels like- like I'll only hurt him no matter what I do."
"I mean, I could. Perhaps- perhaps I even should. He.. practically gave himself up to the Lonely for me. It was- it was for me, for all that I hated it."
"Yeah, but he shouldn't. You kind of...already showed your priorities, you know. And it's okay that Martin wasn't at the top. But if he wants something you don't want, then it's not fair, is it?"
He sighs. "Look, I was a really shitty boyfriend once. And he didn't deserve what I did to him. And I should have let him go a long time before he hated me."
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He laughs as they come on the last turn.
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"Good, good, can't corrupt the youth if they're roasted. I'm assuming your ship was as rebellious as ours was?"
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And he is eyeing that shell, just in case, as he speeds for the finish.
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"Fuck."
Second place.
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He sets the controller down. "Surprised you didn't just cheat again like you always do."
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He reaches over to pull the blanket over Jon's face. "Shut up."
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"Being better at getting kidnapped is hard- Daniel!"
He is now covered in blanket.
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And he wraps an arm around his blanketed friend.
"Also, I'm better at kidnapping, so that cancels out."
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Things could be worse.
"Shall I count this as a kidnapping, then?"
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He curls up beside him, feet on the couch, and then adjusts the blanket so that they are both underneath it.
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"Not that there are very many locations at the moment."
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"And no. Not that many yet. I should go searching for my cabin but...who cares now?"
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A soft huff of a laugh.
"Daniel, that's terrible for a new warden. On another ship, you'd have two years added to your sentence."
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He gives him a nudge. "That's why I got my own personal torture ship."
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"Oh? Did it have your name on it? Did you put a flag in it?"
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He leans over and presses a very affectionate kiss on his cheek before pulling out of the blanket. "Come on. That's enough excitement for you."
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Because pedantics over everything. Especially when he's being coddled. He'll lean into the kiss. And he hates that he has to ask but-
"...do you think I'm doing the right thing?"
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"Yeah. I do. You aren't - devastated by this, Jon. You've gotten more emotional about random shit than this."
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"Not for my sake," he says a little more quietly, "for- for Martin. I just-
"I know how far he'll bend to try and make me happy. I know how much he'll twist himself into pieces. A-and I know how close to the Lonely he is. It all- all of it feels like- like I'll only hurt him no matter what I do."
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He says it carefully, but he's not shielding him from the truth.
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"I did. Regardless of what I thought, I did."
He swallows.
"And he'd... he'd probably forgive me that too."
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He sighs. "Look, I was a really shitty boyfriend once. And he didn't deserve what I did to him. And I should have let him go a long time before he hated me."
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